Being a creative, a full-time worker and adding every other twist and turn that life throws is overwhelming; a depressive state of mind kicks in. The tasks that I tackle on a daily basis are not arduous, unless we’re adding in my mental health. In worst cases, these tasks are likely not to get done without proper planning and realistic constraint.
The thought of digging into my emails is exhausting–I’m depleted before checking one inbox message. To think that I have to open the email, read the email, respond to the email and apply more effort due to what the email entails feels quite awful. Now, I imagine that exact concept, but, doing it multiple times after the first email. All of this wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t in my deepest despair and no fuel to get through any tasks.
An epiphany of ordinary changes (which should’ve been put in place a long time ago) came up on social media.
We don't need to make grand, sweeping changes or reach our goals overnight. We just need to take tiny steps each day and to trust that they'll all ad up. https://t.co/zNOrW0M6ig pic.twitter.com/rzw2uDFbbr
— Tiny Buddha (@tinybuddha) August 21, 2018
Gazing at the bigger picture and premeditation of murder of my goal has always been my flaw. I don’t write as much as I used to–not because I’m lazy, but because depression averts my pleasure and turns them into wishes. Passion becomes burdens, with disparity not too far behind. However, deep down, there’s still pleasure I get from knowing I have completed a piece of writing, or any tasks, in general. If that means it takes me 40 days and 40 nights to write this piece, then I’ll see you guys in the early stages of October. I diffuse my own momentum when I think too far in the box, ultimately, placing me on the outside of my deferred goal.
Methodical efforts of task breakdown don’t apply only to those dealing with mental health, it can stretch across a general audience. Mindfulness can be applied to everyone’s lifestyle. Anxiety knocks on the door when I think too far ahead. Thinking too far ahead can cause you the race you haven’t begun to run yet.
Habits begin to inherit the efforts we put forth from breaking up our tasks. I’m an ambitious person. To have depression defeat me would crush my soul and I won’t allow it. It’s not as easy for everyone and it takes time. I mixed the phrase “if you know better, do better” with instilling small, healthy ways to improve upon my mental health. It’s an ongoing battle–one that I won’t lose–pacing myself to become victorious; it all adds up, over time.
Learning daily that it’s about the pace and not the race.